Trigger

Please pull the trigger, draw the knife
Make it so
I can be certain of the fork in the road
I'm too scared to choose
 
Sever my endeavors
Take an axe to my hand
My mind has no focus running spokeless in the sand
I'm too scared to move
 
Hesitate and courage makes a get away
So you hang your head and run
All things come to those who don't procrastinate
But I need the starting gun to decide
Decide
Decide
Decide to not decide

 

13 Weeks

I was alone when you picked me up
And you took me out
And we talked for hours
It wasn't a con just to pick you up
We were simply friends but it won't be that way again

Cause you ripped by chest wide open
And left me to die
I called you every other night for 13 weeks with no reply
I think I've had enough

It'd be easier if you were dead (X2)
Though I'd still be without you, you'd have an excuse
And you wouldn't have ignored me on purpose

Part of me wishes we'd had a fight
Or a reckless night
Or a jealous boyfriend
At least I'd have something to tie this tight
Cause it's loose as fuck
But you won't give me an easy way out

You just rip my chest wide open and leave me to die
I call you every other night for 13 weeks with no reply
I think you've had enough

It'd be easier if you were dead (X2)
Though I'd still be without you, you'd have an excuse
And you wouldn't have ingnored me,
You wouldn't have destroyed me on purpose

 

Desensitized

We had a bond
So supernatural
Transcending love
Pure and platonical

Where is it now?
Was I imagining to fit my needs
You shut me out
I still don't know why

I'll make it a chorus so it loses its meaning
I miss you I miss you I miss you
I'll say it a hundred times to remove all the feeling
I miss you I miss you I miss you

Board up the doors
Tune out the memories
You're taking up space
You're clogging my arteries

I'll cauterize
Try to imagine I have all I need
Desensitize
Until you are gone

I'll make it a chorus so it loses its meaning
I miss you I miss you I miss you
I'll say it a thousand times to remove all the feeling
I miss you I miss you I miss you

 

Universe of Me

Farmer boy was raised on retention
Ignorance and corn
Fertilize your rural lives in shit
Had to find some thought cultivation
Been fallow way too long
And this is the worst place I've ever been

All I want is an inbetween
A sensibility and a soul
Holding on impossibility
A universe of me in control

City boy was raised on pretention
Selfishness and porn
Eulogize your urban lives in black
Had to find some soul renovation
Chelsea is a bore
And I don't think I'm ever going back

All I want in an inbetween
A sensibility and a soul
Holding on impossibility
A universe of me in control

No, it can't happen now
You're not happy now with your life

 

Disappearer

I needed comfort
I held you in my arms
Conjured in the air I thought I loved you

You kept me saited
Resigned to let it go
You were all I'd ever known
Alone and aimless
I walked around for days
Too much thinking
Too much thinking

I'm leaving
Leaving right now
Leaving
Leaving right now

I stopped the aching
It doesn't hurt at all
I was over you so fast
It doesn't hurt at all
You're the disappearer
You make things go away
But you never show your face
How can I believe you?

I'm leaving
Leaving right now
Leaving
Leaving for now